It seemed all she was doing these days was talking, if it wasn’t to Jack, it was to Brian, hell even Lee had attempted to talk to her, but none of them understood she didn’t want to talk, shedding want to sit and remember what had happened, she didn’t want to think about it, she just wanted to go on with her life.

Except it didn’t seem to work, nothing she seemed to do was working, not talking, or not, not talking, it was all the same, she still remembered, every time she closed her eyes she remembered, or caught her reflection in the mirror, she just wanted it to stop, no, she needed it to stop.

She pulled the Evo to a stop, she had borrowed Jack’s because he had blocked her in, left him a note, and headed out, it was roughly 5 in the morning and the sun was slowly beginning to rise. Looking up she found herself at the beach, with a sigh she existed the car and headed towards the sand, before she plonked herself down with a tired sigh, the wind blowing in her hair as she looked out over the sea.

Walter was out early, old habits hard to kill. He was on his typical swim, his body ached as he reached the final part of the swim. It was a quarter mile left and he wind sprinted the butterfly stroke and crashed through the ocean. His body moved fast despite it's injuries and soon he could feel the waves almost pullin him into the sand. Stiffening himself he let the wave pull him strait into the sand, tucking his head he rolled up and out of the surf. His heart skipped a beat when he saw Faye. He got ready to jump backwards into the wake hoping she didn't see him.

Oh the universe was agaisnt her all right, the one person who could bring all the memories back to the fore front of her mind was now stood in front of her, well virtually, further down on the beach soaking wet.

With a breath she bit the inside of her lip, could she really talk to him, or would she just remember the friend she thought he had been, he had just dropped of her radar, and no one had told her what ahd become of him. Apparently he was okay, from what she could see, but she knew scars ran deeper then the surface.

Slolwy she lowered her gaze, she couldnt do it, talk to him, maybe she really should have taken her own advice.

Walter took a deep breath, he saw her grimace at him once she recognized who it was. He clenched his jaw and slowly walked forwards towards her. "Faye..." He said softly as he stood a healthy distance from her, she was still beautiful but hecould see the pain in her eyes. He knew there was probably never a chance she'd forgive him.

His voice was just the same as she remembered, both before and during, it sent chills down her spine and she lifted her gaze to meet the man in front of him. Like this, dripping wet he almost looked inviting, friendly, nothing like the man who had kidnapped her and 'tortured' her.

"Walter" She stated just as softly, she had come here for whatever reason, she didnt even know herself, but she had a feeling she was gonna leave with a hell of a lot more.

"Well I'd say this is a surprise but I don't subscribe to chance." He didn't bother requesting permission to sit instead he fell down to his glute in front of her. "I know there is no way to justify what I did, especially knowing what I know now."

Faye simply nodded her head at his words, god damn universe was agaisnt her is what it was, her gaze shifted overtowards him as he dropped down at her side. Licking her lips she set her jaw once more and utrned her gaze to the sun that was rappidly rising in the sky.

Letting out a slow breath she bit the inside of her lip "You saved my life" She stated, but there was a bite, and coldness behind her words, letting him know that while she was grateful, she really wasnt.

Then the rest of his words sunk in and she actually turned to face him, one brow raised in question, "No you know what?" She questioned.

"I'm beginning to wonder if I know anything." He said as his eyes dropped to the sand in front of him, his fingers raked through the sand, "No, I don't know what." He answered as he pulled up the images from that night, his stomach retched and he fell sideways bracing his hand on the sand to stable himself.

Her gaze was slightly concerned as she turned to face him, her brows knitted ever so slightly, she was pulled, both wanting to be concerned for a man she had once classed as a friend, and not wanting anything to do with him. Licking her lips she let out a soft breath.

"Where did you go....after i mean.." She questioned softly, her brow still knitted but she was no longer looking at him, but instead the waves once more.

"After I found out we were all being played? I went after the puppetmaster, things went south and I ended up bleeding out just north of Mexico city...Spent three months trying to get back to the states..." He said looking at her, "Carter was being used to get me framed, I was being used as a scape goat for an international incident, and it brought everyone that knew the both of us into it..." Walter swallowed hard as his body began to ache from the swim. "There isn't any way I can get you to stop looking at me like that, is there? He said softly catching the look in her eye before she looked away, the look of disgust in her eyes made him wrench in agony inside, he still couldn't blame her but he knew now what others had felt and if he had stuck around she wouldn't have been the first one to give him that look.

Again she felt mixed feelings, there was a part of her that wanted to feel sorry for him, to feel pain and horror at what he was telling her, but there was a part of her that felt happy, glad that he had been put through what she had. She clenched her jaw, licking herlips as she turned her gaze away from him, her dark eyes burning with annoyance. With a breath she watched as the waves crashed over the shore in front of them. If she had been closer the water would be lapping at her feet, the coolness of the water a start contrast to her hot feet.

Her brow furrowed as she turned to look over at Walter. He had brought her up, all those months ago, and in one single movement he had broken it all down. "I dont know what to say Walter" She stated softly, "Or do" Shaking her head she pulled her hand through her hair.

"I...would like forgiveness..." He could feel the sun coming up behind him and he stood, "What I did to you was an image...yes I betrayed you, and I scared you." He raised his arms and stood in the light, "But look at me, and tell me I haven't been paid back in kind." There were new scars on his body, knife wounds, bullet wounds, and other lashings. "I never actually hurt you...I saved you from truly being hurt, just like I saved you from Nate dammit." His jaw locked shut as he cursed, he didn't mean to bring that up and suddenly realized what a dumbass he had been the whole time.

"I'm sorry Faye, I'll leave, you don't deserve this type of shit and will never see me again." His arms dropped and he began to walk away.

Faye watched him as he stood, her dark gaze locked on his figure, which was shadowed by the rising sun, she heaved in a trembling breath, her jaw locked tight. She kenw what he was sayin was right, she did, she could see the change, he was no longer the man she remembered him to b.

"You dont get it do you" She questioned softly, her eyes wondering over to him as he began to wonder away, "I understand what you did, the reasons you did it" Licking her lips she slolwy stood up, brushing the sand down of her trousours, and slowly walked over towards him.

"I always promised myself i would never allow myself to be that helpless her afraid again" SHaking her head she dropped her gaze, "And now its all i seem to be"

"There was nothing you could do, nothing a lot of people could do. Thugs, pimps, gangsters, they aren't shit. You have never ran into somebody like me before and I doubt you ever will again. Without an army of bodyguards there wouldn't have been able to stop me, even then I still would have got you the way would have been changed." He probably wasn't explaining away anything but it was something in the way of condolence of his actions.

Faye stared back at the man in front of her, was he honestly trying to make her understand what he had done. "I get what you did, why you did it, i understand that if it hadnt been you, it would have been someone else, and i would have died" Shaking her head she moved past him, arms wrappin garound her body as she stared at the waves.

"It doesnt change anything though" She stated softly.

"What can I do Faye? Whatever you ask if it'll help tell me?!" His voice was filled with pain and was begining to become frantic.

Faye laughed, softly turning to face him, "Iv been dealing with fear all my life, first my dad, then Tristan, Nate" Shaking her head sh furrowed her brow,"You would have thought i would have figured something out by now" She shrugged her shoulders "If i knew, id tell you"

"Then please let me help you, I'll train you more then I have before. It'll be my way to make it up to you, I cheated I used chloroform. If I hadn't drugged you I know damn well you'd have put up one hell of a fight." Walter was telling the truth, Faye had been great at defending herself and knew how to get out of holds and locks she was freakishly flexible and knew what hurt the most and how to target. "Please...anything to earn your forgiveness."

Faye fully turned towards him this time, her dark gaze watching him with great intensity, "You really think that training me is going to help, what else can you teach me you havent already"

"I've held back Faye because some of the stuff I know is extremely dangerous, toxins, deathstrikes, stealth. Ways of getting back at the people who have harmed you and even better, prevention techniques so that you can stop it before it happens. I trained you to react physically but never trained you mentally to keep this from happening." Fighting and moves were only one part, he never told her of the small signs of being followed, the sounds of feet pausing in the distance, the small glint of a scope in a window targeting you.