The wind softly ruffled her hair, the stars were sparkling over head and the gentle sound of the waves lashing against the shore lulled her. His arms were warm, and the faint smell of his cologne enticed her senses, and despite the cold and her simple bare shoulder dress she was warm, his hair tickling the side of her cheek. The sound of his heart beating beneath his chest made her smile, sitting with him like this was nice, she knew if any one past they would see a young couple in love, when it was completely the opposite, but if that was true, what were the flutters that she felt in the pit of her stomach. Was it simply the fact she knew soon she would have to leave the embrace of his arms and return to reality, return to Jack and the problems between them, or was it like him, she was feeling more then she should.

Swallowing instead of saying anything, replying to his words she shifted her position, nestling herself into his arms even tighter. She wasn’t ready, didn’t want the night to end. She didn’t want the comfortable feeling to ever stop and she didn’t want to return to Jack and the memories that would resurface when she did.

Jeremy looked down at her and gave her a smile he didn't even think he'd ever use again. It was a soft sweet smile filled with tenderness and adoration, the smile he had used to give her before things went really bad.

"So you and me are on the same page then..." he said softly the smile still in place, "...Neither one of us wants to go back to the reality we live in. We both know we have to but... I have to be honest, I really don't want to let you go."

His face was serious though there was a serene feeling in it, the hope that this feeling was in truth a mutual feeling, he really wanted it to be.

Faye closed her eyes, the smile that had crossed his face, it broke her heart and made her soar all in the same moment. Slowly her eyes opened and a soft sigh fell from her lips, a small, yet pleasent smile that told him all he wanted to know, all he could ever possibly imagine.

"I dont want you to" She whispered lifting her gaze, her eyes locked with his, she didnt want to ever forget the warm feeling that she got when wrapped in his arms, could she ever let the feeling go, while she returned to Jack.

"Then I won't let you go, even when reality sets in," Jeremy said softly as he looked down at her, he could read it in her face.

She really felt something for him, it warmed him slightly, like when he had gotten his first kiss. It was that warm feeling, when he found out there was someone that actually cared about him. He missed that feeling, it had been gone for so long he thought he'd never really feel it again.

Jeremy relaxed fully as he sighed and glanced out at the roiling ocean, this was the perfect date, there were ups and downs but this moment right now, that was the one that mattered the most out of all of them.

Faye slowly nodded her head, her borw furrowing and eyes watering ever so slightly. SHe didnt mean to, but his words had hit her, and hit her hard. They ment more then she would ever allowe herself to admit, more then she would ever be fully able to describe to him. "Ill hold you to that" She whispered, returning to her postion resting agaisnt his chest, her fingers wrapped around his hands, and pulled his arms around her waist.

Smiling she to turned towards the ocean, half of her wished that she hadnt gone back to Jack, but she had loved him, still did. Clenching her jaw she pushed it aside, for now it was just them.

"You'd better," He said without thinking.

The words seemed to hold their own kind of weight to them, it was a kind of hanging weight Jeremy hadn't wished them to hold. Sighing softly he placed a soft kiss to her forehead, knowing that she was probably feeling guilty about all of this.

"I'm sorry I'm doing this to you," He said softly, "I know you are with someone else and I can't stop myself from doing this."

Faye tilted her head, looking up at him, "You have nothing to be sorry for" She whispered, tilting her head back so she could brush her fingers agaisnt his cheek.

"Im the one walking away" Licking her lips, she dropped her gaze, her own guilt for what she was doing washng through her body.

Jeremy tilted his head and kissed her fingers lightly, "Reality has to set in," he said against her cold flesh.

Then he realized her fingers were cold and so were her arms, "Let's get you actually warmed up now," he said standing with her before he set her on her feet and opened the passenger door, "Sorry but you are physically cold, I can tell."

Faye nodded her head licking her lips, and just like that reality set in....she knew the second she sat in that car it would be over. With a soft sigh she nodded her head, body leaning agaisnt the passenger seat. Her gaze locked with him and she fought agaisnt the urge to kiss him.

Slowly, and silently she slid into the passenger seat.

Jeremy looked at her longingly for a moment before deciding, he bent into the passengers side and placed a warm lingering kiss to her cheek, "I'm sorry for having pushed us back into reality," he said as he withdrew, "But I don't think your brother would have liked me any better if I took you back and you were shivering."

He shifted back fully and closed the passengers door, taking a deep breath as he ran a hand over his hair to gather himself back together enough to drive. Jeremy could feel his hands shaking slightly, she had gotten so close to him so fast. Faye had cracked more layers of his defenses then she would ever realize, he was trembling because no one could get to him like Faye could, no one but Faye ever saw that haunted look in eyes, that blank emotionless void he had. Not even the one that had added to the expansive void had seen that side of him.

Jeremy steadied himself and walked around opening the driver's side door and turned the key in the ignition, letting it idle as he turned the heat on full blast, "Let's get you warmed up," he said almost tightly.

He was trying to pull himself back together and be all business like, he didn't want her to go but she was engaged, she wasn't going to be able to come home and cuddle with him and talk about nothing at all. She had to go back to her brother's while she worked out her problems with Jack. That was a sure thing.

Faye laughed softly, oh yes if she was returned in any condition other then the perfect one that she left in Leon would have his head. Licking her lips she allowed the time that Jeremy remained out of the car to relax, to calm he rapidly beating heart. To question herself, her own motives. There was no denying that there was something there, something that connected the both of them, but she was almost afraid to actually ask what it was, if it was something actually happening between then, something deep seated, something actually there then she would have to admit to herself that her and Jack, while great and how she loved him so much, she would have to admit that no matter what they weren’t going to last.

Biting the inside of her lip her brow furrowed ever so slightly, but if it was something else, something else between them, simply two souls connecting because they knew that both were damaged, broken perhaps beyond repair, could they really turn away and go back to their normal lives, or would they always return here, to this moment, trying to fix each other, but in the long run would never work.

Was she really ready to decide that, was she ready to see if it would work.

The door to the car opened and she turned her gaze onto him, a soft, but pained smile on her face. This was it, whatever had happened between them tonight, it would be the last time….she didn’t quite like it. “I guess we should get me home” She muttered.

Jeremy nodded almost mechanically, "Right home."

He was trying to put the fluidity back in his motions but there wasn't any, even the time outside alone didn't settle his nerves any more then settling there in the car with her. His fingers trembled slightly as he forced himself to back out and drive away from the beach.

Jeremy bit the inside of his lip, he could feel that void opening up inside of him and he really didn't want to fall into himself any more then he was already.

Faye looked over at him, and turned away from him just as quick, it was as if suddenly as if everything that had jsut happened was simpy a spell that had been cast on them, and now it had been destroyed just as simply as it had been created. Licking her lips she swallowed down the lump in her throat.

There was a gap between them, a huge void that had suddenly grown betwen them, licking her lips she draw her lower lip between her teeth....she really did not want to go home.

Jeremy worked on auto pilot, his feet and hands mechanically moving the car as his mind drifted somewhere else completely. He hated this feeling of being a drift, he hated himself because he was getting jumbled up and confused, nothing was making any scene.

There was this gap filling the car, almost filling the now awkwardly silent car, besides his shifting.

The car slowed to a stop outside her brothers apartment and head rolled to the side, looking over at Jeremy, at the beach everything had been so easy between them and now despite the distance between them, it felt as if there was a huge void now engulfing them.

"I had a good time tonight...thank you" She whispered, clenching her jaw her brow furrowed ever so slightly, she knew she should get out of the car but didntwant to.

Jeremy's jaw tensed briefly, "I'm glad you had a good time despite everything. I would offer that we should do it again soon, but I don't think Jack would like that, and I don't want to put you in the hot seat for anything," he said softly looking at her, "I'm glad you let me take you out. I learned a lot about myself and I enjoyed your company a lot."

He didn't let her see that aching void anymore as he shut it out of his eyes as he smiled softly at her. It was one of those smiles you give to strangers walking by, I don't think I'll see you again but hi. Jeremy already knew what he was going to do when he got home, he was going to wash that void away.

"Do you want me to walk you in?" he asked softly glancing away from her as he turned off the engine.

Faye smiled, her eyes twinkling, wiht a small nod of her head, "I did" Licking her lips she smiled, her gaze shifting over towards the window, she cuold see her brother pacing behind the blinds, of course he woudld stay up for her, it was typical behaviour on his part. Biting the inside of her lip her brow furrowed ever so slightly, as she turned her gaze back towards Jeremy, he had closed himself of from her, just the way she was about to with him.

"No" She shook her head, with a small smile, "Gives Lee less reason to queston me" She whispered softly. Biting the inside of her lip she clenched her jaw before pushing open the car door.

Jeremy nodded, "Faye..." he said leaning over the seat she had left, "If you need anything call me alright? I told you I'd be there if you needed me and I'm not planning on taking that back."

Then he left her go. Jeremy watched her walk out of his life, god that ache in his chest wasn't going away this time. He hated himself as he watched the door swing open and her brother glared at his car, he wasn't the knight in shining armor he was trying to be. He was just the thief trying to steal her away from her original life. Taking a deep breath Jeremy drove off once she was safely inside.

When Jeremy walked into his apartment, he kicked empty glass liquor bottles out of his way as he grabbed the Whiskey bottle sitting on his counter. With out a second thought he twisted off the cap and started drowning the void and the ache in it.

Faye stopped bending so that she could look at Jer, with a small nod, she smiled at him, but this time it didn’t reach her eyes, it didn’t make her face light up, it was forced. “I will” She whispered softly, licking her lips she gently shut the door behind her, and turned her back on the car, turning her back on him. The door in front of her opened and she fought the sudden wave of emotions that threatened to overwhelm her. Biting the inside of her lip, she shook her head at her brother, and completely bypassed him.

It wasn’t until she had gotten to the spare bedroom, and the door had shut behind her did she allow herself to realize the severity of what she had done. It was over, that feeling in her chest she had felt, it was gone, and she knew it wasn’t gonna come back. Sliding down the door she allowed the lone tear to fall down her cheek, her knees drawn to her chest…tomorrow she knew she was about to go back to Jack….but did she really want to.