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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 14:17:25 GMT 2
Natassia looked over at him, listening intently to his words, with a small nod of her head, and let out a soft breath, her brow furrowed ever so slightly, heaving in a breath she let out a soft breath, “You need a new past time then” She stated softly, “What did you did you do before Alison?” She questioned wondering how much of his life before her he had given up trying to stop the pain from consuming her.
Drawing her lower lip between her teeth she let out a soft breath, dark eyes sparkling as she looked over at him, “Okay don’t take this the wrong way, but it sounds like you do everything to make everyone else happy other then yourself, I mean you’ve just said you spent all your time trying to make Faye happy, it shouldn’t have to be a chore Jeremy, it should just come naturally”
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 16:33:40 GMT 2
"Before Alison... Let's see what didn't I do before Alison. Let's see before my family moved here I was a pretty normal kid, got decent grades, was a skater, started playing guitar. When we moved here I started smoking, played guitar in local bars, jacked anything I could get my hands on, one time it ended up being one of Johnny's bikes, which is when I started working with him, and fought with my parents right up until the day they died. After they died I kind of just went off the deep end head first. I started racing motorcycles, kept jacking stuff, smoked, started drinking, worked, and was still in school and I started going out with Alison. 6 years later I find out she's been cheating on me for a month or so and I beat the shit out of the guy in a blind rage. Johnny's the one who stepped in to stop me from killing him and made all the charges vanish. So any questions on my life pre and during Alison's reign?"
Jeremy looked at her and nodded, "It's who I am. I can be the most miserable dumbass you know, but I'm happy so long as the people I care about are happy. I know that sounds stupid but it's just who I am. I don't care what happens to me as long as their alright."
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 17:10:42 GMT 2
Natassia swallowed as she listened to him talk, “Sounds like the average life of most of the kids in LA” She stated softly, dark eyes sparkling as she finished of her food, licking her lips she shifted over to him pressing a soft kiss to his cheek, a smile crossing her lips as she shook her head. “Its not stupid” She licked her lips before shifting away from him enough to finish her food.
“Word of advice though Jer, you gotta start being happy for you” She looked over at him, dark eyes understanding as she pushed the straw into her mouth, drinking the cold liquid, as she watched him silently, before turning away her gaze, she hoped she wasn’t pushing the boundaries with him.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 18:19:53 GMT 2
Jeremy nodded and looked at her as she finished her food as he started in on his second burger, "Yeah I guess I'm just a normal guy for you. Maybe I don't want to be happy for myself. What Lance said was true, I'm not happy unless I am miserable. Nothing changes that, I take whatever I can get most of the time. No matter what life gives me I take it, no matter what."
He sighed rubbing the side of his neck. She was pushing dangerously close to things he didn't really want to talk about but he probably should talk about. Jeremy hated talking things out, he much rather just wash them away.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 18:46:33 GMT 2
Natassia licked her lips as she watched him for a moment, with furrowed brow she let out a soft breath and turned her attention to her chips, with a smile she looked over at him, nudging her foot into his leg softly, dark eyes sparkling as she looked at him. “Im pushing here and I get that I do Jer, but your miserable because its better then anything else” Heaving in a deep breath she let it out softly, “Because when you were happy it got ripped away”
Drawing her lips between her teeth she finished the last chip and moved away from him, heading towards the kitchen were she disposed of the empty wrappers. “You can tell me to shut up and mind my own business” She stated softly, resting her hip against the counter.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 19:18:50 GMT 2
Jeremy shrugged, "I'm used to getting pried at," he said as he took another bite out of his cheese burger, "Trust me I'll walk away if you do it much more though. I don't need another shrink. I had enough of that mandated by the court system."
He was looking at the door, there had been a lot of things he had never really dealt with. He just pushed them all away. Wolfing down the rest of the burger he stood and walked into his room grabbing his guitar as he walked back out to the living room. He fiddled with it before he started to play, it wasn't any tune really, it was just what he did on the beach, mindless playing.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 19:25:12 GMT 2
Nat smiled slowly nodding her head, she was past helping him, Johnny and Deon were right, he needed to help himself, which meant he needed to accept that he needed help, of some sort any way, but if he was happy doing what he was doing then who was she to interfere. Licking her lips she let out a soft breath as he returned to the living room and then slowly started playing.
Heaving in a soft breath she smiled at him, despite the fact it wasn’t a tune it still sounded amazing, slowly and almost hesitantly she walked over towards him, leaning over the sofa and wrapped her arms around his back, her lips pressed into his neck softly. “Im sorry” She whispered softly, “I tend to stick my nose where it doesn’t belong”
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 19:54:51 GMT 2
Jeremy shrugged, "Lot a people stick their noses where they don't belong. I just never let it bother me," he said as he tipped his head back resting it on her shoulder, "But it's not like I've snapped at you yet or anything."
He tipped his head slightly and placed a kiss on her cheek, "So anything you wanna hear? Playing helps me process."
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 20:09:54 GMT 2
Laughing softly she nodded her head her eyes drifting closed at the feeling of his lips against her cheek, drawing her lower lip between her teeth she slowly slunk over the back of the sofa, shaking her head she let out a soft breath.
“Er, surprise me” She stated with a shrug of her shoulders, “Im not one for music to tell ya the truth,” She shrugged her shoulders as she watched him, she had to admit to her self that he looked pretty good with a guitar in his hands.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 20:20:09 GMT 2
"Alright... Your going to make my life hard aren't you?" Jeremy asked as he tried to think of anything to play.
Biting the inside of his lip he began to play one of the songs he had written when he was younger.
"Help me lord I thought I found it Just like a dream turned out all wrong Don't feel the same madness about me now Don't feel the hurting when I'm gone.
Don't feel the wonder of the sweetness Don't feel the aching need to share Don't feel the way I feel without you girl Just to fly was in your head.
Should I never look into your eyes again Should I never want to make the call Should I never need you like my only friend Should I read the writing on the wall
It's just as simple as a feeling Just as simple as these cards Why do I feel so god damn complicated Don't feel the aching need to share
It keeps coming back without you Like a boomerang through my heart And curse that cupid ain't even found me, no Into the wound another dart.
Should I never look into your eyes again. Should I never want to give my all. Should I ever need you like my only friend Should I read the writing on the wall.
And all of it seems, Hoping our dreams would fall together Never to be, if only one dream were dreams of love.
Help me lord I thought I found it. Its like a dream turned out all wrong Don't feel the same madness about me now She loves to hear the sadness in my song... "
He glanced at Natassia he wasn't sure what to expect, it was hard for him to stand criticism but he hoped that everything would turn out all right, "I wrote it when I was younger..."
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 20:28:06 GMT 2
Nat licked her lips as she listened to him play, she could tell that he loved it, it was in his eyes, the serene look on his face, heaving in a breath she draw her lower lip between her teeth, slowly nodding her head, “Your amazing” She stated in awe.
Letting out a breath she shifted towards him, “Also one of the hottest things iv seen” She stated softly, her fingers smoothed down the side of his face, “What was the inspiration” She questioned softly, dark eyes locked on his face, a soft smile over her own, she had a feeling she knew, but she wanted to it from him.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 20:52:00 GMT 2
"Thank you, I wrote it right after we moved," Jeremy said smiling softly, "I had a crush on this girl back there and I never told her. I hoped and planned that one day when I was famous I could play it at a show and she would hear it. That was supposed to be my future... But it never happened."
He looked back down at his guitar and sighed softly it would never happen that dream of his. It was nothing but a pipe dream.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 20:56:31 GMT 2
Drawing her lower lip between her teeth she smiled softly, “it’s a shame, the thing’s we dream and know will never happen” She gently pulled his guitar out of his hand before setting it down at the side of the sofa. Licking her lips she slid into his lap, arms wrapping around his neck fingers brushing over the side of his cheek.
“But we cant change the past right, just the present” Drawing her lower lip between her teeth she let out a soft breath, dark eyes sparkling as she slowly lent into press her lips against his.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 21:18:58 GMT 2
Jeremy smiled at her, "Yes it is always the things that can never be, but this is nice," he said his hands resting on her hips.
He placed his lips against hers, he kissed her warmly, his lips moving against hers as he tightened his grip on her holding her against him. Theses are the things that he missed, just sitting on the couch making out with a pretty girl.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 21:32:42 GMT 2
Natassia hummed her appreciation it was nice, almost normal, to be there with someone, with no one around them, no one to worry about, just them. Licking her lips she moved her lips back to his once more, fingers smoothing around his neck, and sliding through the hair at the nape of his neck, her lips moving from his lips down to his jaw bone.
A soft breath fell from her lips at the feel of him, it was a different thing, one she couldn’t quite argue with, it was a nice feeling, nipping at the skin of his jaw she smiled playfully at him. “So if I get you a bike are you gonna take me for a ride?”
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2011 23:07:22 GMT 2
Jeremy groaned softly, "So what are we going to do for the rest of the day then. I mean we're completely alone and your here sitting on my lap."
He smiled and rubbed her hips and placed another kiss against her lips, "I know you not one for music, but why not? Music is the only thing that has kept me sane all these years."
Jeremy was watching her, he wanted to see her expressions because she was hard to read, hard to judge what she was thinking. Not to mention even though she was prying she was one of the only people he didn't mind prying into his private life.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2011 14:53:26 GMT 2
Natassia furrowed her brow ever so slightly, licking her lips as she let out a breath, fingers smoothing through his hair and the back of his neck. “Before my mom died the house used to be filled with it, on the weekends she’d have been and Deon in the kitchen helping her to cook and she’d dance and laugh and sing, then she died and it all stopped, when mom died the rest of us did to”
Shrugging her shoulders she let out a breath, lowering her gaze momentarily, heaving in a breath she let out and looked back up at him, her fingers sliding down to the spot she had found, “But as for the rest of the day, im sure theres something we can do” She whispered with a sparkle in her eye.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2011 17:09:18 GMT 2
Jeremy nodded to her, "I'm sorry about your mom," he said softly brushing his fingers over her cheek as his hips jumped suddenly, a breathy swear slipping from his lips as she hit the spot of his neck dead on.
He glared at her without any real bite to the glare as he slipped and hand into her hair and tugged lightly, "Your mean you know that? Here I was trying to have a nice conversation with you and you just go straight for the kill shot," he was teasing her before he slipped his lips over hers once more, lightly tugging on her hair as they kissed.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2011 17:20:01 GMT 2
Nat gave a stiff nod, a soft laugh falling from her lips, with a slight moan as his hands slipped into her tugging at it tightly, relaxing into the kiss she nodded her head at his words, “Yea it’s a good way to get of the sore subject of my life” She muttered with a shrug. Licking her lips she let out a soft breath as her fingers smoothed down his back, “I can dig but I hate it when people dig back” She admitted softly.
Her lips slowly returned back to his, it was an odd, yet slightly comforting feeling, she hadn’t opened up to any one in a very long time, but yet she hated the idea of doing so.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2011 18:28:25 GMT 2
"Well there will be a lot of digging back if you keep it up," Jeremy said as his fingers massaged the back of her head.
He shifted slightly and nibbled at her bottom lip before he pulled away completely once more, "You know this right now, I am kind of happy we came back to my place for. And can I mention that your brother is an odd one, I thought he was going to throttle me and then nothing..."
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