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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 17:44:31 GMT 2
She felt comfortable in his arms, but she also felt guilty, because she knew that for him this all was something different, she knew she couldnt give him what he wanted and craved...yet he knew she was taken, even though she knew it, it didnt change her feelings, or her guilt.
Finally they were in the warmth and she didnt miss the blush the waitress gave him, laughing and shaking her head she sat down, her eyes locked onhim, "When you fidn something great you never stop" She whispered with a smile.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 18:17:35 GMT 2
Jeremy laughed softly, "Yeah a regular addict that I am," he teased softly as the waitress sat the sundae down on the table with a slip of paper that wasn't a receipt.
He looked at the slip of paper and smiled softly, "Thanks Maddie," he called to the waitress who flushed brightly and nodded trying not to look to embarrassed when she spoke, "I... I um... sorry if your on a date."
"No Maddie, just wining and dinning a good friend of mine tonight," Jeremy said shaking his head, "We'll see if she'll keep me as a friend after this night is over."
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 18:18:20 GMT 2
Faye couldnt help but smile, it seemed this man was a ladies man and she wondered what kept him from actually committing, or why the woman ran a way, deciding not to actually ask a the question she shrugged it of, looking down at the sundae, "Trust me you'd get sick of me" She stated softly, she couldnt imagine her life with out him.
Her gaze dropped to the sunda and she smiled, "If this tastes as good as it looks then your never loosig me as a friend" Reaching forward she took a small mouthful and let out a pleasent sigh, "Hmm you just introduced me to my new best friend"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 18:53:48 GMT 2
"Naw, I'd get sick of my self before I would get sick of you," Jeremy said thrusting the other spoon into the cold cream, "Yep I try my best to introduce you to new friends."
Jeremy sighed softly looking down at his hands and bit the spoon contemplatively, "So what are you thinking about? You've had this look on your face all night like your trying to figure something out about me that you don't want to ask about."
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 19:02:58 GMT 2
Faye licked the spoon, and slolwy pulled it from her mouth, her dark eyes hooded over ever so slightly as she looked at him. He had hit the nail on the head, and her head tilted to the side ever so slightly.
"Your job isnt as simple as imports is it..."Licking her lips she lent forward, "You do something illegal or work for someone that is" She stated with a small nod of her head. Her brow furrowed ever so slightly, she didnt wanna over step her bounds.
"If im way of please tell me, i dont wanna offend you" Of course that wasnt the only thing she was trying to figure out.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 19:23:22 GMT 2
Jeremy shook his head, "Nope it isn't as simple as imports, there are a lot of other things that go on, and most of it aren't legal," he snorted digging his spoon back into the ice cream, "There isn't much in my history that wasn't something illegal. But it's not like I can change who I am any more," he said thrusting the spoon in his mouth the cold cream killing the bitterness in his throat.
Jeremy looked at her openly, he didn't bother trying to give her the false emotions he gave everyone. If she wanted him around as a friend she was just going to have to accept him the way he really was. There wasn't any emotions in his cold dark eyes, there was only that hollow look you would see in someone's eyes who had experienced or see something no one should have to live through.
Jeremy was heartless and paranoid, he was dangerous to himself more then anyone else.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 19:38:42 GMT 2
Faye watched him for a moment, she was actually releived that he had been honest withher, that he hadnt lied, but she didnt like the look in his eye, it made her frown, and dump the spoon into the sunda in front of her. With a soft sigh she reached over and wrappped her fingers over his hand, her thumb brushing over his knuckles.
"Im not going to judge you Jer" She stated softly, "My brotherdid hardtime for attempted murder, he broke out his best friend being tansfered to jail and he used to high jack trucks" Licking herlips she let out a soft breath.
"I like you for you, not what you do" And she ment it, she liked him, she just didnt know how much.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 19:54:52 GMT 2
Jeremy looked at their hands with a mild curiosity, it was like she was trying to comfort him. He glanced up at her noticing the frown that had graced her lips, her brother was like the lighter version of him.
"It's probably a good think you aren't going to judge me for what I am doing now," he said lightly, the heartless tone slipping through the need to keep her close to him, "I've done worse things then what I do now," the soft snort as he dropped his eyes once more to their hands the twitch of his lip a tell of the suddenly vicious side of him, he pushed the feeling back as he put his spoon into the melting cream, "Faye, you are one of the only women who haven't walked out of my life when I told them. But there isn't a single person in my life who hasn't left me. I'm just waiting for the hammer to fall on this time too, you have someone that means everything to you and I envy you. I envy how far you've fought to get here today, I never fought... I let it happen because I never cared enough to fight, and I never will."
His words were empty of the self loathing that was building up, that was the real reason he had no one. He let them all go, he didn't fight to keep them when they left him. Jeremy's body tightened slightly, he didn't need anyone, he could protect himself.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 20:00:44 GMT 2
Faye let a soft sigh fall from her lips and she pushed herself away from the table, and then moed over towards where he sat, one hand moved to sit on his lap, the other one lifted to force him to look at her. She had seen the look on his face and it scared her, because she had seen that look on her face many times, on her own when she looked back in the mirror, even now she still saw it.
"Im not going to pretend that i know what youve done, or what you do" Her eyes showed nothing but concern, understanding, no judgement, no anger or hatred. "I fought because i had no choice, if i didnt i would have been in the morgue the first time Tristan really lost his temper" Drawing her lower lip between her teeth she fought the urge to comfort him any more.
Smiling she looked at him, her fingers clenching around histhigh softly, but firmly, her head tilted to the side, "And i know how important people are, how hard it is to allow any one close to you cus they only hurt you" Slowly her fingers loosened and smoothed through his hair, "But there aint shti you can say to me thats gonna scare me away"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 20:18:13 GMT 2
Jeremy looked at her his hands resting on the table clenching slightly wanting to steady her as she perched herself almost over his lap, "I'm glad you did," he said thumb running a circle over the table top momentarily.
He gave her a sharp look at her almost challenge, "Don't say that," he said his words lacking the snap his look had given her, "I have things that I've done that have scared me. I don't let people in because I can't..." he said the rest of the sentence dying on his lips, no one knew how closed up he became after his parents died. No one knew because he knew how to pretend, he knew how to be someone else.
He looked at the ice cream puddle, "Do you want me to take you home? Or did you want to go for a walk still?"
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 20:22:45 GMT 2
Faye swallowed and looked down for a moment, her other hand lifted, resting over his hands again, unclenching them. "I can promise you there are probarlly somethings in my own life that arent all great myself" She whispered softly, but she knew there was a lost cause, she wasnt going to push him, because she knew he was closeing up...just like she did.
"We are going to go for a walk over the beach, we're going to dip our feet in the water, and we're gonan forget the shit in the world" She smiled, standing, and offering her hand to him, "Or are you going to continue feeling sorry for yourself" She questioned ever so softly.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 20:44:09 GMT 2
Jeremy smirked slightly, "Me feel sorry for myself? No never..." he said as he pulled his wallet out and dropped a 50 on the table, "Alright let's go on that walk, unless you wanr to finish the rest of the sundae"
He couldn't bring himself to look at her, this wasn't what he wanted... he didn't want this to turn out like this. She wasn't supposed to know, not any of the things that had slipped out of his lips. Faye wasn't supposed to have seen that hollow look in his eyes.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 20:54:45 GMT 2
Faye lowered her gaze down to the sunda and then back up to him, "Lets just say you owe me....again" She laughed softly and allowed him to lead her outside, once more it had dropped colder and just like before she allowed herself to duck into his side, her head resting agaisnt him, arm wrapping around his waist.
She had to admit she enjoyed that he had opened up to her, that he had let her in, there was a part of her that was sure he had let her in more then he had wanted, but that was okay with her, even with the haunted look in his eyes, she didnt care, he was still the same person who had sang to her on the beach.
"Its so beautiful tonight" She whispered.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 21:08:03 GMT 2
"Not as beautiful as you," Jeremy said softly, "And what do you mean I owe you again?" he asked as he wrapped his arm around her holding her so that she would be warm, "I should have brought a jacket with me for you..."
He didn't know if opening up to her was the best plan. Even if she had said she wouldn't judge him he knew she would still never see him the same way. She'd probably see him as this kind of broken doll, something that needed to be fixed and put back together.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 21:14:24 GMT 2
Faye rose a brow, "For getting all soppy and shit....it destroyed our appetite for icecream" She rolled her eyes as if it was the most simple answer in the entire world. Shaking her head she snuggled back down into him,.
"When i can have you keepig me warm" She questione with a raised brow, "Trust me im used to being left out in the cold, itsactually kinda refreshing" She repledi softly, her cheeks flushing a deep red at his comment on her beauty.
"Ya know you can talk to me right" She questioned, she didnt bother lifting her head to look at him, "It actually does help"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 21:21:44 GMT 2
Jeremy laughed softly, "Alright I owe you another date then," he said sneakily, "I know, I know I'm hot stuff," he teased not even believing in his words.
He almost stopped walking, his head shrink always siad talking was therapeutic, but for him it was just a nightmare. Talking didn't make things better, it made him know how really bad things actually were. Taking a breath he knew she could feel, "Not me... Talking only makes me realize how bad things are for me. One of my foster parents made me go to a head shrink, until they had enough and kicked me out."
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 21:25:40 GMT 2
Faye lifted her hand forcing his hand down so that her fingers could lace through his, and she slolwy nodded her head, "Yea i never beleived it much myself" She stated softly, "Untill my brothe forced me...when it comes down to locking yourself away from the world or killing yourself because you cant forget how bad it was"
She clenched her own jaw, she wanted this man to smile, to wash away the haunted look but knew she never would, so why was she so adimet in trying, "But whenever your ready, if youever ready, im here, i wont force you" She stopped, lifting her gaze and chin so she could look at him, her words carrying on the wind.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2011 21:37:52 GMT 2
Jeremy bit back the first thought that popped in his head before he spoke, "I don't think i'll ever be ready to talk, but it means a lot that your willing to help me try to fix me on my own time. As for the forced talking your brother did for you... I've tried the last bit, it wasn't worth the additional trips to the head shrink. It doesn't mean your crazy when you want the world to stop throwing everything on your plate as if you haven't been choking down everything you've been thrown already."
He almost physically winced at how bad that sounded, ignoring the feeling he squeezed her hand lightly. Jeremy wished this was real, that this moment wasn't just temporary.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 6, 2011 21:41:50 GMT 2
Faye smiled, nodding her head ever so slowly, she understood what he meant, she really did, and she had wished to god so many times her brother had left her be, but she had eventually seen how bad she was, how far she had allowed things to go. Licking her lips she lowered her gaze ever so slightly...wondering why one more thing had been thrown at her.
"Okay moving swiftly on, i think i remember er saying careless fun" She whispered, dark eyes sparkling with mishceif.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 3:33:47 GMT 2
Jeremy grinned wolfishly, "Well I guess that mean's one of us is getting soaked then," he said pulling her in front of him acting as if he was going to pick her up and toss her into the still luke warm water, "I mean you did say careless fun."
He couldn't help himself as he placed a warm kiss at the back of her jawline, "Don't worry I'm not that much of a dick," he said pulling back as he hugged her tightly, "So what other kind of careless fun do you want to have on the beach?"
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