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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 18:34:36 GMT 2
Faye laughed softly, "You remember a lot" She muttered with a soft smile, god how long had it been since she ahd done that, smiled, it felt like forever. Licking her lips she slolwy nodded her head, her gaze shifted down to the half empty bottle of vodka, but pushed the thought of it out of her mind, there was no way in hell she was gonna start that up again. "Its been a tough couple of months" Oh how much of an understatment was that.
Shaking her head she brushed a hand through her hair, and looked down at her outfit, oh yea didnt she looked just grande, she really looked as shit as she honestly felt. "It gives me time to change" She muttered to her self more then to him, "Ill see you soon" Nodding she ended the call and headed upstairs.
Half an hour later she was walking back down it, a simple plain white maxi dress fitted over her curves, Ving lowly in thef ront, her hair slightly waved and a spec of light makeup, even for Jeremy she couldnt bare anything else.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 18:58:45 GMT 2
Jeremy snapped the phone shut and looked at Johnny, "What's so important you couldn't wait until I called in?"
"There is a problem with the last shipment," the asian man said picking his way through the bottles left on the floor, "One of the crates was open and it's contents was ruined... I see why you are still here in the apartment my family got you when you came to us. Still trying to drown her memory in alcohol."
Jeremy's eyes narrowed at Johnny's last comment, it wasn't even a question, it was a statement, "I'll give the shipping company a call, obviously something happened on the way to Cali, because the guys in China said that everything was in perfect condition when they shipped it. Was there anything missing?"
"I can't say that I checked, so why don't you come in and check for me?" Johnny said almost not giving Jeremy a choice.
"I have plans Johnny, you know I don't go in unless it's to arrange other shipments or exports," Jeremy said firmly, "And since you let your self in you can let your self out."
"I own you Jeremy Sumerland, you don't get to tell me no," Johnny said approaching Jer angrily.
Jeremy pulled himself to his full height and towered over the asian male, "You've never owned anything on your own Johnny. I'm the one who sticks his neck out to get you what you want, and if you threaten me again I promise you will regret it," he wasn't in one of those polite moods anymore, "Now you had better be gone by the time I'm out of the shower."
Jeremy stormed into the bathroom and took a shower, not bothering to dry his hair when he was done. He was already running late because of Johnny, he really didn't know why whenever things weren't perfect Jeremy had to fix it.
Jogging back out to his car he sped through the traffic and pulled up to Faye's brother's house. He sat in the car for a moment taking deep breaths of air, as the speeded only served to piss him off more.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 19:30:55 GMT 2
The sound of a car stopping caught her attention and she flicked the blinds to see that he was sat outside waiting, obviously something had happened, because other wise he would have been at her door. Licking her lips her gaze flicked over to the ring on the table, clenching herdoor she turned her back onit, and hopefully the painful memories it brought her.
Swallowing she slipped out of the apartment, and locked the door behind her, the wind catching her hair as she turned to face the car and the man, with a smile she walked over towards him slowly, the lessons Joker had taught her roaming through her mind.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 19:50:18 GMT 2
Jeremy sighed and got out of the car, "You look nice," he said smiling as he opened the passenger for her, "I'm sorry for not coming to the door, you know trying to calm myself down before driving you around."
He held his hand out to her for her to take, "It's been a while..."
Jeremy looked at her as if he wanted to say more but he decided against it, all thoughts of Star had left his mind, he was more worried about what had happened to Faye. He missed seeing the small smile that had always been sent to him before.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 19:57:29 GMT 2
Faye tilted her head "Im not that scary am i" A soft laugh fell from her lips, she wasnt stupid, obviously something had happened before he had arrived, so instead of taking his hand she simply wrapped her arms around his body and pressed herself close to him. She hoped it calmed her just as much as it did him.
Pulling away she gave him as big a smile as she could muster before slipping into the passenger side of his car, her gaze flicking over to him "So what have i missed" She questioned, she was more then intreigued onto wha the had wanted to talk to her about.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 20:12:08 GMT 2
"Yeah your not scary," he said sighing as she hugged him, his head drooped as he pressed his face in her hair, "Love how you know what I need..." he muttered softly as his body relaxed as his arms tightened around her.
When they parted he was smiling slightly, he closed her door before slipping in himself, "What have you missed? Hm... not much. Let's see there was work, and drinking, and... well that's basically it up until about... 1 am this morning..."
He paused and looked at her, "And you?" his eyes searching her face for a moment something had changed, "What happened to you? Your not the Faye I remember from the beach, I can't put my finger on it but I can tell something changed."
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 20:17:34 GMT 2
Faye rose a brow looking over at him, oh she knew all right, knew what he needed because she needed it, she need it more then she was willing to admit it, she had needed the warmth of another human body to let her know she was fine. Licking her lips she furrowed her brow ever so slightly,"Who is she?" She questioned softly.
The question made her jaw lock, and her eyes harden ever so slightly, she had changed, a lot, she had seen it, every time she looked in the mirror, three months ago she was changed, and now thanks to Walter she was changed even more. Licking her lips she smiled tightly, "Guess i started taking charge" She muttered, her hand reached across squeezing her leg, she all to aware of how empty her hand felt. "Now tell me, everything im dying to know here"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 20:33:56 GMT 2
Jeremy looked sheepish, "Um... she works as an exotic dancer at the bar I went to last night..."
He looked at her, "I'll tell you about last night, when you sum up what I missed," It was a fair deal that and he was slightly more concerned about Faye then he was about what he was going to do about Star.
There was something there, something terrible had happened to her and had rocked her world completely. He wasn't sure what had happened but until he knew, he was completely unsure of how to ask for advice.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 20:39:07 GMT 2
Faye rose a brow, "Exotic dancer huh" She smiled over at him, "She pretty" She questioned, licking her lips, a sigh fallign from them at hsi words. Turning her gaze away from him slightly she shook her head, allowing her gaze to instead look out of the window.
"Lets just say er Jack was looking for quick cash" Clenching her jaw she turned her gaze back over to Jeremy, "I got caught in the crossfire" Shaking her head she furrowed her brow ever so slightly, she had delt with what had happened, but recently, she didnt know if she ever fully could understand where Jack had suddenly come from.
"Me and Jack are complicated" She laughed it was tight and there was no ausment behind her voice, just pain and a little bit of annoyance. "He told me he couldnt marry me"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 21:01:37 GMT 2
Jeremy shook his head disappointedly, squishing that bubble of hope that suddenly surged up, "I didn't like him when I met him and now I really don't like him. To be honest I feel like bashing his face in for putting you through anymore of this shit after everything has already happened to you. And for him not marrying you, he's a fucking idiot."
The words were deadpanned and filled of annoyance with her now ex-fiance. Jeremy really didn't want to talk about his problems, he wanted to talk about this problem.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 21:04:21 GMT 2
Faye shrugged her shoulders, "Technically nothing actually happened to me" She brushed a hand through her hair, "Well untill after, apparently getting shot...hurts a lot, who would have thought" She looked over at Jeremy and smiled, shaking her head she shrugged her shoulders once again.
"So i held up my end....please hold up yours" She muttered, she really didnt wanan ahve to think of her past any more she just wanted to get it over and done with.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 21:17:27 GMT 2
Jeremy nodded and reached across the gear shift to squeeze her thigh slightly, "I'm sorry I pushed so much, I hope I didn't upset you," he said shaking his head apologetically.
He shifted slightly and glanced at her for a quick minute before he took a deep breath, "Um... well I went to a gentlemen's' club after work and she was there. She was the one who approached me and well yeah... We just ended up talking over drinks until she got off, I offered to drive her home and she accepted, we talked more and kissed and then something happened. It was like reality set in for her and there was this giant wall between us getting to know one another. I offered to take her to her other job, but her brother ended up taking her. I know where she works during the day but I... I don't know... I mean I know how to work with women but this is way out of my league."
Jeremy was slightly uncomfortable talking to Faye about this, but more for the fact that he was afraid that she would be judging him for getting swept up with a dancer.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 21:23:31 GMT 2
Faye licked her lips shaking her head, "Funnily enough iv dealt with it" She said honeslty, and she had, for the first time in a long time she couldnt honestly say she had looked her past in the face and dealt with it, "Ill go into specifs another time" She muttered, seh was more then interested in hearing what he had to say about this woman.
Listening to him, she rested her hand on top of his and rose a brow, "Are you sure reality didnt set in for you as well" She questioned softly, her dark gaze wondering over to him, looking directly at him, untill he turned his gaze over towards her, "Jer you never had any problems sweeping me of my feet" She licked her lips letting out a soft breath.
"Maybe the problem is your afraid your gonna get hurt, and with me you knew you couldnt, because you couldnt get that attached, and with her you can" Her fingers caressed his hand gently, brushing over his knuckles.
"I mean hell i might be well of base here, but really what stopped you"
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 21:32:37 GMT 2
Jeremy made a face that emotions couldn't quite place, "I didn't want reality to set in... I... I really don't know, I mean it started with her asking me if I was in a committed relationship with someone else. After that it was the sharp look that almost screamed she didn't want what ever was happening between us. Which I realize sounds stupid in retrospect considering at that point I had known her for a grand total of an hour..." he ended in a grumble before continuing, "I guess there is some part of me that still wants to sweep you away from this. I know there is still a part of me that's still caught around 'her', she was such a huge part of my life, I just... well you know."
Jeremy sighed as he shifted gears against glad she had left her hand on his, she could keep him on track better then anyone else.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 21:39:00 GMT 2
Faye smiled in understanding, she could understand both sides quite easily, but without actually talking to the woman she couldn’t fully speak for her, but she knew Jeremy, the best he had let her know him any way. Licking her lips she concentrated on her fingers smoothing around his knuckles, obviously what ever had happened had shook him, and he was still trying to deal with it. “Let me ask you this” She started her gaze flicking over towards him.
She was shocked that some part of him still thought about her in that way, that after all these months, somewhere in his mind he still thought of her, and it pissed her of that once again her and him were meeting at circumstances that were not idle. If she hadn’t just broken up with Jack, she’d be all over him, but he didn’t stability, something she couldn’t give him, it would kill her if she realized her feelings for him were because of what was going through her mind because of Jack….oh who the hell was she fucking kidding, nothing had changed, she still felt exactly the same as she had back at the beach, wrapped in his arms. “Do you want to go there with her” She wondered softly, her head rolling to the side so she could better look at him, and while she was it, she pretended her heart wasn’t beating a mile a minuet waiting for his response.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2011 21:47:31 GMT 2
Jeremy didn't know, he really didn't know, "I don't know... but I know that entire time I was unconsciously comparing her to you," he avoided looking her in the eye as he was acutely aware of her fingers dancing over his knuckles, "But if I hadn't met her which made me call you, I would have kept thinking that I'd never be able to see you again until you were already married. Now, I feel guilty about the circumstances, I feel guilty about having called you for advice on another woman because I was resigning myself to never having a chance with you."
He smiled softly hoping that his words wouldn't scare her off.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 7, 2011 21:55:07 GMT 2
Inside she was dancing, his words made her smile, and feel something, something, she couldn’t quite describe, it was the feeling she always got around him, it was almost the feeling she got around Jack, but while Jack made her feel, Jeremy went one different and made her feel alive. Licking her lips she looked over at him “Then you have your answer Jer” She stated softly, she never once stopped he fingers moving over his knuckles, it almost made her feel safe? Comforted, and she didn’t look up at him, like this, she forgot she had been engaged only a week ago and now things weren’t.
Biting the inside of her lips her gaze lifted slowly and she looked over at him, “You cant settle for second best” She whispered softly, licking her lips she lowered her gaze, was that what she would be doing, settling, or had she been settling for Jack, because he had been there, he had been there and comforted her, and made her feel good….first with Ashton who had swept her of her feet, when he had fucked her over Jack had been there and he had continued being there….was that really a basis for a relationship.
Drawing her lower lip between her teeth she forced a smile, “I feel like I do this to you often, first it was when I was engaged and now when im not, and im still as unavailable” She muttered clenching her eyes closed her turned her gaze away from him, there was no denying the attraction she felt there. “Im not gonna lie, there is something there, there was all those months ago” Looking back towards him she smiled, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2011 15:04:43 GMT 2
Jeremy smiled warily, "Well... I have shitty timing and really bad luck with women. But I'm always going to be here for you if you want me to be, I can't stop what I feel for you any more then I can be Superman and derail a train," his words were resigned, "But I can try to make you happy as best I can while you follow your heart. I'll take my chances with what is available, and maybe someday you and I can stop passing by one another and collide."
He knew what he needed to do now, he was just going to have to settle for second best until he either got over his first pick or he found someone else. Jeremy shouldn't feel as crappy as he did, he shouldn't feel like he was drowning again. Why was it the only thing that made him feel like this was women. Probably it was the only thing he wanted that for some reason could get, women kept slipping through his fingers like water nothing was ever solid with them in his life.
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Post by Faye Perez on Apr 8, 2011 15:22:33 GMT 2
Faye draw her lower lip between her teeth, her dark eyes sparkling as she watched him carefully, she could almost hear what he wanted to do, what he was thinking about. "You cant settle for something that ultimatly isnt going to work, you'd resent her, and she resent you" She whispered softly.
Her gaze dropped down to her hand, wrapped around his, how come it was him, the one who could make everything just disapear, all those things she had been feeling ince she had left Jack, all of that was gone the second she had wrapped her arms around him. "You think we'd ever work" She questioned softly, listening her gaze ever so slightly.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2011 17:36:52 GMT 2
Jeremy sighed knowing Faye was right, he spared her a glance, "I know your right, but this isn't a perfect world, I can't get what I really want so I have to compromise," he spread his fingers over the gear shift, allowing her own to fall in between his so they were holding hands over the gear shift, "We would work... Even with my current job... I would do anything to keep a smile on your face. We'd have rough patches like anyone else, but it would work."
He left out the part about it working if they just tried to let things work between them, if the both of them weren't fighting what they felt. He wanted so badly to stop trying to resist this feeling of relaxation he got when ever she was around him. Jeremy was trying to restrain himself from pushing her, to stop trying to capture her heart like she had done to him.
His fingers closed slightly over the gearshift effectively squeezing her hand lightly as well, why wasn't anything working out like it should?
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